Upset About The Dress

I am so upset about my dress. I feel like I am in a state of limbo right now with it. I don't know what is going on. I don't even know if I want to wear MY dress after everything this store has put me through. I actually dread going back there tonight to go see the dress and see what they say. The woman in the store is so nasty and after the countless negative reviews I read on Sunday night and made myself even more sick about I am not expecting any type of resolution.

I called American Express last night to find out about disputing the charges on my credit card for what I paid for the dress. They said I could do that but if I do I would not be able to take the dress with me. So if I decide I want to fight for my money back on the dress I give up all hope of ever wearing that dress for the wedding so I have to be certain I'm not even going to try and salvage it.

I called 3 other bridal salons yesterday. My first call was to Hollywood Bridal where I got the bridesmaids dresses from, they said I could bring the dress to them but if they don't have the fabric they won't be able to do anything with it. The woman on the phone was appalled that Bridals by Roma, 1) promised me a strapless gown from a halter top and 2) that she didn't order the fabric at the same time, you never order fabric from a different dye lot she told me. I also inquired about sample dresses there but she said they're all a size 10 or 12 and it would be difficult to cut the dress down to a size 2 for me. I also made an appointment to go back to Kleinfelds next Tuesday if I decide that I don't want to wear my original dress and to go look at sample gowns.

Mike and I also went to a bridal salon in Westchester on the way home from work last night to look at sample gowns there just to get an idea of my options. He was so supportive. He came in the room with me and explained the whole story to the sales consultant, he just kept saying how he wanted me to be happy. I tried on a few sample dresses. There was one beautiful dress I saw that I definitely liked. It's VERY similar to my original dress, same structure, ivory satin, a-line with the minimal beading. The beading is slightly different and the bottom of the dress and the train has beading. I actually broke tradition and showed Mike the dress. He of course said I looked beautiful and loved the dress.

I'm just not sure what I want to do yet if I've given up all hope on MY dress and I truly don't want to wear it as is. It's just so upsetting, I couldn't sleep last night thinking about it. I know it's just a dress but it's my wedding dress. I've been dreaming of this dress for years, I just want it to be perfect, and right now it's definitely not. We'll see what happens when I go back tonight.....